A really Groovy time in my life

Ok here it is. I am now on a journey in my life . So this crazy journey trying to figure out what to say about this, my life has gotten better and simpler but still lacks a few things but nothing major um. I'm really enjoying my time with Thomas. Watching him grow watching him become a man. He always intrigues me and befuddles me at the same time. He makes me crazy with the things he does. I worry about his drug usage but it's nothing major . Let's call it growing up in this crazy crazy time that we live in and he's doing well he's a good young man. He has good friends you know Jesus is a blessing to have around he helps keep him stable. But at the same time they're in there in the kitchen playing grab **** and making monkey noises. But for me it's really been AA mind expanding moment in my life where I'm living without fear for the first time. Not fear of total economic crash and disaster and being a hobo. But a period of not having that fear of judgment of lack of success of that general feeling of not being where you're supposed to be. You know I haven't achieved a lot in my life but for what I have done I feel successful. I help people I love my job and the insurance industry. How do I put this, I am feeling as if I'm more on the path than I've ever been. I don't feel as lost in the world and in my life.

So I guess wait a second he's back and he's making further monkey noises. They fixed dinner and he keeps bursting into my room. But I guess what I'm getting at is that I've kind of honed and focused this moment to be at least partly in control of who I am and where I'm going. If you could only hear the noises I hear coming out of the kitchen and the slamming of doors. Sorry about that I had to deal with him and move my widget out of the way so I could see what I was typing. I'm enjoying a certain level of respect am I age and considering my relative maturity I guess. Y'all know I'm kind of a moron. But that being said I feel that I'm well rounded educationally spiritually I'm not going to say emotionally because my brother still thinks so freaking gut Asperger's or something. And now he's in here dust rolling my**** they recorded nice. I'm not even gonna add at this edit this. But it is kind of fitting that it's just a ramble a verbal ramble of my life and my stuff. But II do need to get back to writing and I think I've kind of found my spot you know where my my logical and mental record doesn't skip every time I put the needle on it.

Anyways as I was beginning to drift. I've settled a great deal as far as past stuff. The process of growing older and letting go of stuff from the past. And just generally feeling well and maybe a little mushroom usage here and there. that's new to my life too. But we'll talk about that at a different time and it's a whole other discussion. Alright well I'm sending love to all my loved ones and I apologize for anybody that has to read this crap. But it is an outlet and this is my first time trying dictation windows 11 is pretty solid I dig it. Okay till next time guys and I'm going to try to keep going with this stuff again. And we'll see out there amongst the stars